Solamente Una Vez

I had a dream Friday night/Saturday morning. I always write my dreams down in my journal. I didn't have time to write this one down because we were off to Pittsburgh for Cinco de Mayo & I was slightly hungover from the night before. The dream weighed heavy on my shoulders and I sent myself a text message so I would remember to write it down when I got home. I kinda half forgot about it while we were celebrating Cinco De Mayo, but every time I would get a text message it would remind me that I needed to write it down. The weight eventually lifted but it was still in the back of my mind.

Last night I was out with some friends. We were celebrating Cinco De Mayo for the forth day in a row. I'm not going to get into the details of what happened, but it was to close to what happened in my dream to be just a coincidence. I wasn't sure what to do or how to handle the situation. Even though I had been given 3 days warning. I know that in my dream I didn't handle the situation well at all. I just got angry and walked away from it. That's probably why it weighed so heavy on me. Last night I think I did very well, not because of me but because of the people I was with. Over the last two years I have gotten wiser and better at dispensing wisdom. I do have some of the greatest friends in the world. We help each other out.

That night ended up being a good night, at least for me. I had fun with my friends, in one of my favorite places in the world. A place that I almost lost a couple of years ago. I want to thank Jose for making me feel back at home during that rough time in my life. Its good to have friends like that. To dance with, laugh with, to comfort and be comforted. Friends to bring you back home, friends to feed you when you cant remember to eat.

I was on a roller coaster of past memories. Things I thought I handled better at the time, but was confronted with my weakness, even though it was of no consequence to me. Things I didn't know how to handle and I'm still not sure where it went wrong. Old friends, new friends, singing and dancing. I heard one of the most beautiful songs I have ever heard, and I didn't understand a single word of the song. I just felt the aurora of the music.

Later that night I was talking to Alice. I told her about the dream and what had happened. The really Serendipitous part took place today. We were talking on the phone while she was on her way to work. She reminded me of a song that she had probably first mentioned a month ago. I never got around to looking it up before, but when I looked it up tonight I started to write this blog.

The song reflected so much what was going on last night. It also hit close to home for me. Everyone gets their digs in, especially when they shouldn't. Its the little dig's that build walls & dig up foundations. When I first heard the song I couldn't help but think of all my failed relationships and how things may have been different if we would have both taken the advice. I wasn't lamenting though. That's water under the bridge or over the dam or wherever the water goes when its in the past. Looking forward I hope that someone thinks of this song when I'm being a pain in the ass, because its much easier to build walls than it is to climb them.

"Only Once"
Don't forget!


Incubus - Dig

We All Have A Weakness But Some Of Ours Are Easy To Identify.
Look Me In The Eye And Ask For Forgiveness;
We'll Make A Pact To Never Speak That Word Again
Yes You Are My Friend.

We All Have Something That Digs At Us,
At Least We Dig Each Other
So When Weakness Turns My Ego Up
I Know You'll Count On The Me From Yesterday

If I Turn Into Another
Dig Me Up From Under What Is Covering
The Better Part Of Me
Sing This Song
Remind Me That We'll Always Have Each Other
When Everything Else Is Gone.

We All Have A Sickness
That Cleverly Attaches And Multiplies
No Matter How We Try.
We All Have Someone That Digs At Us,
At Least We Dig Each Other

So When Sickness Turns My Ego Up
I Know You'll Act As A Clever Medicine.
If I Turn Into Another
Dig Me Up From Under
What Is Covering The Better Part Of Me.
Sing This Song!
Remind Me That We'll Always Have Each Other
When Everything Else Is Gone.
Oh Each Other....When Everything Else Is Gone.