BOO!

BOO!
Scary aint I? I love getting dressed up for Halloween.

Coming Back To Life

Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone elses words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of life and the seeds of change were planted
Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but irresistable pastime
I took a heavenly ride through our silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I took a heavenly ride trough our silence
I knew the waiting had begin
And headed straight... into the shining sun


Lyrics by David Gilmour



I guess I have been listening to a little Pink Floyd recently ;)

Take It Back

Her love rains down on me easy as the breeze
I listen to the breathing it sounds like the waves on the sea
I was thinking all about her, burning with rage and desire
We were spinning into darkness; & the earth was on fire

She could take it back, she might take it back some day

So I spy on her, I lie to her, I make promises I cannot keep
Then I hear her laughter rising, rising from the deep
And I make her prove her love for me, I take all that I can take
And I push her to the limit to see if she will break

She might take it back, she could take it back some day

Now I had seen the warnings, screaming from all sides
It's easy to ignore them God knows I've tried
All of this temptation, you know it turned my faith to lies
Until I couldn't see the danger or hear the rising tide

She Can take it back, she will take it back some day
She Can take it back, she will take it back some day
She will take it back, She will take it back some day

Lyrics by David Gilmour, Polly Samson and Nick Laird-Clowes

Google

Google is soon to be the next ultimate evil after Microsoft & Wal-Mart, at least as far as the Luddites are concerned. As of October 12 I am proudly a part owner of the new Evil Empire. Unfortunately I could only afford 1 share. $426 is a bit pricey, especially if I were to buy a lot of the stock. I do wish I could have bought more though. The day I bought it, it lost about $5. Than it went down a few more dollars over the next few days. Last Friday it jumped up $33 in one day, and $21 yesterday. At the closing bell today it was $473. I am definitely happy and hope it makes it a good ways into the $500 range before I will sell it. Just don't ask me for any stock advice, I am just learning and don't know squat about what's going to make it big. I watch the news and listen to some AM radio shows to try to learn a little bit. The guy that convinced me to buy Google (GOOG) has a website & a radio show that is very helpful. He has been saying to buy at least 1 share of Google and you will make money.
So wish me luck and don't forget to use the term "Google" as a verb. Maybe I will get to retire some day. Take that Helen you old %!^(#. Never mind that, its just a reference to a future rant!!!

Creation

Happy 6,010 birthday Universe. Well, at least according to the Ussher-Lightfoot Calendar. Its kinda a long read, but the first part is definitely interesting. Its something I came across this week while goofing off on the internet & I haven't updated anything in 2 weeks and my sister Chrissy always yells at me when I slack. But now that I think about it, she just always yells! :)

ISS

Look, up in the sky! Its a bird, its a plane, its..... Superman? Na its just the International Space Station. Ok, I'm a dork, I know. This is just something that I think is very cool that most people don't even know about.
Did you know that you can see satellites in space as they orbit the earth? This includes the ISS, Hubble Telescope, the Space Shuttle & even a few things that are much more fascinating. Most of them just appear as a small light moving across the sky, very similar to an airplane except they don't blink. Once you know what to look for they are very easy to spot.

To find out when something is going over in the night sky above you, which is every night its not cloudy, check out the Heavens-Above web site. Its simple to enter in your location and see what's up there. Starting on October 17 the ISS will again be visible in the evening hours for those of us in North America. That is convenient for me since I am not much of a morning person, unless I have been up all night. During the last shuttle mission, which was a few weeks ago, they added some extra solar panels. This should make the ISS brighter & easier to see than it was before. For info on the pic above click on it or go to the NASA Astronomy Picture Of The Day for some really far out & groovy stuff. By far the coolest thing on the Heavens-Above page has got to be the Iridium satellites. They are a little harder to see, but they are definitely worth it when you see one.

FALL (part 2) - An E-mail I didn't send to Scott

It just must be the season!
Ok, your probably wondering why start with part 2? Well, I started thinking about change yesterday and came up with the idea for this blog. While driving around at work thinking about it some more, I remembered something from a year ago that i always found interesting and just kinda thought how it fit into my mood for this. I thought it would be a good idea to post it and think about it a little more before completing part 1. It is something my friend Leanne wrote. She is a awesome writer so you should go read her blog. An E-mail I didn't send to Scott. As I was looking this up I came across another of her blog's that is very interesting and kinda fits in with the theme here. In Memory of Mark Parsons....
I really connected with her email at the time. Almost like it had some subliminal message in it just for me, one that only I understand. It still does I guess, thats why I enjoy reading it. If you don't understand it, read it again. Or read my other blog Reflection . Everything here has a very similar feel to it. The blogs and the pix are from late September to early October. So if you find yourself in a blue funk (like the photoshop'd photo above) it could just be the time of year.
Incase the link for her blog wont let you view it, here is the E-mail she never sent to me:

An E-mail I didn't send to Scott:
I had this really good friend from Warner when I worked there, and we held each other accountable to a rule when we were IMing... "No Deleting." You can tell because at the bottom of the AIM screen it tells you "your buddy is typing" or "your buddy has entered text" (that's when they start typing and stop..either because they walked away or they're backspacing)...I don't know, seemed like a good way to keep the friendship open without any judgments, like liberating each other to say whatever we wanted to, whatever was on our minds, without worrying about what the other would think. I say "had" a friend, because we haven't really been friends this entire year of 2005 when something magically changed, but I don't know what, and can't seem to ascertain any reasons or answers. I guess my point is, in response to your e-mail, sometimes people just ramble on, and it may mean something in the moment, but a second later, once expelled, its meaning is lost entirely. I don't know. See? I'm rambling, too.
I'm really really sad today. I think it's the rain and this book I have to read for class called "Gilead." It's about this dying pastor, writing a letter to his 6 year old son before he passes away, and it's just got me feeling incredibly low, and except for the eruption of feelings, there's this apathy on the edges, so I can't quite put my finger on my emotional state, if that makes any sense. And I am really deeply missing my friends at the beach, the sunshine and the waves. There was this magic on Venice Beach unlike I've ever felt before in my life, and I guess I have yet to sense that intensity here since I've been back. You know when you lose a sweatshirt, or something, but you don't notice it's gone for like a month or two, and when the weather gets chilly you think, "Hey, I'm going to wear my favorite sweatshirt (that you haven't needed for the summer)" and you go to look for it and it's gone. And you can't remember where you had it last, but you know deep down you left it somewhere, and feel kind of guilty for not noticing when you lost it...I guess that's how I feel right now. It's not that I feel I'm without purpose, it's just that I feel like I'm lost, and my purpose is to find my way out of wherever it is that I am.
Oh well, it was bound to hit me sooner or later, the fact that I can't just run down to the beach and see the ocean. But man, it really makes me sad right now.
Monday September 26, 2005 - 11:45am (EDT