Monday, February 26, 2007

The Man in Black

I remember when I was a kid and my parents listened to country music. Man how I hated it. As I was growing up one of my favorite radio stations was an alternative rock station that I could pick up out of Cleveland Ohio. They played all the cutting edge stuff. One day as I was listening to it I was shocked to hear them advertising a Johnny Cash concert. What the hell, that's the stuff my dad listens to, why are they plugging it on an alternative rock station? I just didn't get it.
Quite a few years later, after my music horizons had broadened considerable I was watching Mtv. Mike Ness, who is the front man for one of my favorite bands, Social Distortion, was on. He sang a Johnny Cash cover. Ok, I'm definitely missing something here. What is all this excitement about a monotone old country music singer. Especially by punk bands. Bands that are young, angry, rebels..... Ok, that's starting to make a little sense now. Standing up for the little man, being angry, being a rebel represents both what Johnny Cash & punk music stand for. As I got a little older and started to appreciate country music I stared to like Johnny Cash more and more.
Over the past year and a half I have had 2 ex-girlfriends relate how when they watched "Walk The Line" it either reminded them of me or me and my dad. I still haven't watched that movie yet, but I have been planning on it for about a month now. In fact I have been listening to a lot of Johnny Cash this last month. I have been a fan for a while now, but over the last month I have really connected with the music and a lot of the lyrics. So tonight as I was coming home from my second job and heard some Johnny Cash on my mp3 player. It kinda got me in a mood for some reason. There is a bar that has karaoke on Sunday nights. The singing sucks, but they always play old country music, and it always puts me in the same mood. Reflective & a little remorseful. So when I get home I crawl into bed with my laptop and que up some Johnny into my mp3 player, while I download some stuff that I don't have yet. So I'm surfing the internet and decide to Wikipedia Johnny Cash. Holy crap, would you believe that he would have been 75 today? That's just kinda odd, that I would be in the kinda mood that would cause me to randomly stumble across that. So at this point I realize I should write this blog. What's even more odd is as I'm writing this I was talking to a friend. She asked me about why people thought of me and my dad when they saw "Walk The Line". I didn't have a good enough answer so I pointed her to a previous blog that was about a Johnny Cash song that reminded me of my dad. When I went to find the link I noticed that the date on the blog was a year ago and 2 days. Uncanny!
So if your wondering what kinda mood or thought process this puts me in, here is another Johnny Cash song that sums it up nicely.

Johnny Cash - Sunday Morning Coming Down

Well, I woke up Sunday morning
With no way to hold my head that didn't hurt.
And the beer I had for breakfast wasn't bad,
So I had one more for dessert.
Then I fumbled in my closet through my clothes
And found my cleanest dirty shirt.
Then I washed my face and combed my hair
And stumbled down the stairs to meet the day.

I'd smoked my mind the night before
With cigarettes and songs I'd been picking.
But I lit my first and watched a small kid
Playing with a can that he was kicking.
Then I walked across the street
And caught the Sunday smell of someone frying chicken.
And Lord, it took me back to something that I'd lost
Somewhere, somehow along the way.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.

In the park I saw a daddy
With a laughing little girl that he was swinging.
And I stopped beside a Sunday school
And listened to the songs they were singing.
Then I headed down the street,
And somewhere far away a lonely bell was ringing,
And it echoed through the canyon
Like the disappearing dreams of yesterday.

On a Sunday morning sidewalk,
I'm wishing, Lord, that I was stoned.
'Cause there's something in a Sunday
That makes a body feel alone.
And there's nothing short a' dying
That's half as lonesome as the sound
Of the sleeping city sidewalk
And Sunday morning coming down.


Wednesday, February 14, 2007

No Regrets

This one is for a friend. 3 friends actually. One who our over 2 hour on-line conversation tonight ended with me quoting this song, the 2nd who I did talk to on-line tonight, and the 3rd I haven't talked to in a while and i don't know when i will again.

No matter how many times you tell yourself "It is what it is" your not got to believe it if it ain't what it is. "No Regrets" is ridiculous. You will never learn from your mistakes or grow if you hide the fact that you ever made any. Ever meet anyone that thinks they have never made any mistakes in their life??? Ya, i thought so :) "To martyr yourself to caution Is not going to help at all Because there'll be no safety in numbers When the Right One walks out of the door" Yes, that was another Pink Floyd lyric. I just cant seem to get away from them these days.

Now this is not a blog about "Moving on". Its about pretending to have No Regrets, Ignoring the past at the cost of not fixing it, Accepting that every shitty thing that ever happens is what was meant to happen. Its about facing your demons, and not being afraid of the truth. That's not always a easy thing to do. It took me over 30 years to figure that one out and i still have trouble with it. Its not a bitch session either, just some things running through my mind after a long conversation. So when you read the song below don't focus on the song title. Focus on how he is able to get to the song title. That's the key. :)

Maybe the pic above isn't an appropriate one, considering the title of this blog. For those of you who are not fans of the Blue's its a picture of Robert Johnson. He only lived to be 27. Legend has it he sold his soul to the devil. You can click on his pic to go to the Wikipedia page about him.

RASCAL FLATTS
"I'm Moving On"

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on